After much self-debate..Self-reflection and what not, i've come to realise something is definitely wrong with the way i approach life or something else. If not the worst, i think something is also wrong with me. Not really going to expect that much anymore because after 3 tries, thats the maximum time i give myself. If 21 years would be the time i have placed on my self to see if i yield, i definitely did not.

Its not rosy color or peachy anyway, because a rose by any other name doesn't smell as sweet, nor does it even bear any proximity at the very least. Afterall, we accept the love we think we deserve. Yet eventually it all snowballs down to this little effort when i look back in time, this time of the year that i finally realise that what i did tantamount to nothing more than what u compare to as Earth to as Jupiter, as Jupiter to as Sirius and as Sirius to as Aldebaran.

This small craving for help will not last. I will start to think over my actions once again like the past 20 years. oh what misery of life i had installed for myself.