Ah.... I've died.

I realise how meaningless my life has became. I realise what losing of one's goal is like. I feel like dying already. Because of the compulsory army of 2 years i find myself wasting my time waiting for work everyday. How am i gonna survive 2 years like that.

I'm really lost. Hais. I get scramble allowance from mindef and i get to spend them all on transport. =( Painful which everyone of the jc frens should know how much it cost to take a bus or MRT.

Food ain't free there too. And worst of all i have to face commands there.

I have only 2 balls. And i have 5 officers to handle. Tell me how to get over with life.

music is really the only thing i have left. everything else seem to have left me alone. Let me be with myself. I guess ima just blast music in my ears everyday to get by the meaningless 2 years.

Please. Let it be quick. My ending that is.

( Seems like everyone is also having a bad year. 2012. My ORD date is during judgement year. )